As a fellow cancer patient, I understand how you feel. Each of us has a cross to carry and often it is hard to understand the “why” part of carrying those crosses. I once read a book titled, “It’s Not About Me”. I learned a lot from reading it and gained the perspective that sometimes we are given crosses to carry, not for ourselves, but for others. Perhaps that is why you have been asked to carry this cross of cancer right now…those people at the cancer center now have more prayers then they would have had if you had not crossed their paths. So go each day and keep praying each day and know that you are touching lives that Christ, Himself, has called you to touch. God bless you!
Running on Empty
Posted by Lisa Hendey in Health on Wednesday, January 14, 2009 7:00 PM
Despite my determined attitude, the realities of having been diagnosed with and being treated for breast cancer have begun to sunk in a bit this week.
First off, let me reiterate that blessedly my battle is relatively simple since mine was caught so early through a mammogram - I had surgery and am now going through 7 weeks of daily radiation, but no chemo, so I’m one of the lucky ones! I’m in good shape physically and have every confidence that all will be well following my treatment, so I’m not having any undue anxiety about my own health.
But life feels a bit topsy turvy this week even though I am not feeling physically sick. One of the most difficult parts of this whole situation is going to the Cancer Center every day, where I am surrounded by men, women and - very sadly - children who are very ill. Every day, I walk in feeling positive and walk out feeling sad. Every day, I meet a new “cancer friend” with a new story and my heart breaks for most of them.
The hardest situations to accept and to process emotionally are the children who are ill. A few days this week, a young boy name “Ozzie” followed me on the treatment table. I think Ozzie is likely around ten, and he comes to the center transported by ambulance and accompanied by a mom who looks like her heart is breaking. Every time I see him, I give him a smile, say hello, and let him know I am praying for him - what I really feel like doing when I see Ozzie and his mom is crying my heart out. As a mother, I would much rather face illness any day than see one of my children go through something like battling cancer. I’m sure Ozzie’s mom feels the same.
So every day, when I am on the table, I pray for whoever has crossed my path in the waiting room. It feels like a drop in the bucket of the miracles that most of them probably need, and St. Peregrine is likely tiring of hearing from me - but at least it feels like I’m doing something to help.
My inability to cope with the pain of others is likely why I’d make a terrible social worker or physician. It’s dragging me down a bit emotionally, so I’m asking all of you today to carry this weight with me and to pray for all of those families coping with pain, illness and loss. Together, we can lift them in prayer and maybe that will make the burden they bear just a tiny bit lighter.
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Lisa: I love to read your posts, but I don’t always have the opportunity to do so. However, how touching are your moments in the day as you bring Christ to others just in your very presence. You will be in my prayers and those you cross paths with.
Lisa, I will gladly help you carry that cross…adding those YOU are seeing each treatment day (Ozzie & the like) to my prayers as well, dear friend. Please know that you are helping by “sharing this experience”, bringing awareness to some of us who may have it in our own future, or the future of someone we love. My thanks to you.
Thanks guys…it’s tough to share a post like this that is not as upbeat as I hope to be, but for some reason I felt very prompted to share with you what’s going on in my brain these days. It’s good to have so much kind support and encouragement, and so many wonderful friends. But it’s GREAT to know that all of you will join me in praying for those in need of healing! My friend Deacon Tom Fox has talked about being an intercessory prayer warrior - that’s what I want to learn to be better at through this experience.
Praying for all your ‘cancer friends’ and you.
It is good that you are being honest with yourself and seeking support. What you are doing is HARD and scary and so, so sad. My mom had cancer buddies at radiation too including two nuns ( breast cancer higher incidence amoung nuns then the rest of the female population).
Let me take this opportunity to send some Faith and Family readers to an incredible site:
I found them after my mother completed treatment for BC in 2001. It is an amazing organization and incredible opportunity to be a light to cancer patient during the dark days of chemo.
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